mood swings....

ive been extremely depressed lately....i dont know what's wrong...hhmmm...i should list down what's been bothering me lately...then maybe i can figure out one by one what i should do...
[obviously procrastinating...]

• my family hasnt been their usual selves lately...lots of fights here and there...
  
• some of my classmates still doesnt like me...i suppose, just because we have to work together doesnt mean we have to like each other...
• i havent seen miren and keight for a long time now....i really miss them...
• i feel like im on a solo-flight whenever i go to school....[yes, i have some people that i hang out with there...but...its not the same...i dont have anyone there that i can actually confide to..]
• i try to substitute this depression with an obsession for finding love...which is obviously stupid....i am what you call a romantic...i love the idea of "being in love"...but i think i'll never actually experienced it....im too attached to my comfort zone...
• talking about comfort zone....i need to get out of this zone more often....i need to learn new things....see new places and meet new people...its not always going to be me, miren and keight....*sighs*
• im doing everything half-assed now.....not as fully motivated and full forced as i first started school....but grades are still the same [high]...im not kidding! which just surprises me more....
• i think i just really miss talking to someone....someone that i can really talk to...someone i can tell these sort of random depressing issues of mine....

oooh....who will wallow with me in my pitt that i've dug?? or will there be someone who will help me get out of it??

[you can laugh at this whole random thoughts of mine....its alright...wont blame you for it...id laugh at it if i just happen to read it...its not like the world will end nor does it revovle around me.]