i havent blogged anything in the longest time....but i feel its about time i go back to blogging.....going to Miren or Keight isnt exactly an easy choice for me right now...they have enough things to worry about, combined even! anyways...

im losing grip of myself lately.....i feel so unfulfilled and unsatisfied....im always thinking about getting away from here....moving out to a different country....running away from everything....if this is how it feels when one is thrown in the real world...i just hope to find some reassurance and answers to these random thoughts...its just when i think back to it, back in grade school i easily know im going to end up in high school. then when i was in highschool i know i was going to end up in a culinary school....and when i was in culinary school all i know was that i was going to start working after that.....now that im working.......................i dont know...........what's going on? why's it like this? i feel like i cant see where im going anymore except if i move out the country...........the road has always been bright for me....but now, things are hazy and uncertain..........