my september schedule

check out my multiply site for lotsa a pictures!! www.apprenticechef.multiply.com

and also to see my schedule for sept...here's a link to my calendar of events: http://apprenticechef.multiply.com/calendar/2007/9

fuck-off!!!

i had a fucking piss-off day at school today....first of all...i wasnt able to have a decent sleep (dont know why)...then when i was able to finally sleep my mum barges in my room and reminds me i have to drive my sister to work today. there goes my "rest". when i finally drove my sister to her office, i got caught in traffic on my way back! i got home 10am already...and i still havent had breakfast nor have i taken a bath! so i did everything in a rush just to get ready for school coz if i didnt leave by 11am...i'll be caught in traffic again then i'll be late...aftewards, in school, we had chef pauline as our lecturer of the day. something that made my day a bit brighter...but my idiotic classmates just had to open their foul-mouths!! chef pauline was saying that she wouldn't want to see my batch again next year (if anyone would fail the finals)...then a bald-headed-no-decency idoitic man just had to yell out "Ma'am...anna wouldn't mind staying till next year!" now, its not only my section that's in the room...there's TWO sections in one room at that moment. i didnt flinch nor looked at anybody. but my head was screaming out loud! then to add to that, we had a little quiz for review...we were asked one by one to answer a question...when it came to my turn...someone just had to make that "yihee" sound. i wanted to chop his head off when i heard it! you know, im a nice girl. ive never fought back nor paid any attention to their teasing to me before. but have some decency man! think about what you say! if you say its a joke...then you dont know how to kid! coz im not laughing. i have every right to be mad!!! ive never wanted to hit/slap/kick somebody sooo bad till that moment!!! you guys are sooo dead tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! thank God im a lesbian...i dont have to deal with the idiotic male species!

blogging as we know it...

ever since i could remember i always have a notebook where i write down all my thoughts or things that have happened to me...some call it a diary, others call it a journal. either way, it was a very handy tool for me to just randomly write what i had in mind, whether it be silly or down right depressingly serious. i never could fill up one notebook and yet i have accumulated alot of it already. its either i fancied other notebooks for its neat and cool design or i filled up the old one with random doodles instead of writings. =3

after awhile, i learned that i can just type what i had in mind into a computer and even have it publish in the net. thus, the birth of my blogging habits! blogging has its perks...

• for one thing: i dont need to write plus its actually readable! (for people who've seen my hand-writting, only the gifted can actually understand my hand-writting! lol.)
  
• second: its easy to edit my entries with a click of a button, no mess, no fuss.
  
• third: i get to share my thoughts with other people out there! compared to my old notebook where i had to bring it around and pick the right "moment" to let some people see it; a blog is so much easier. i just type, publish in the net and just come back to it when i feel like it to check if someone left a comment.
  
• fourth: it has become a means of communication for me to my friends whom i havent seen for so long already. just to keep each other updated! ^_^

although, blogging does have its down sides...

• no power, no laptop
  
• no connection, no internet
  
• not exactly the most private place to hide deep "dark secrets" although, ive hardly hidden anything whenever i write in my blog. its always better when everythings OUT there! ;-P
  

now the evolution of blogging has arrived to my fingertips!! *bwahahaha* i used my brother's old Eye Toy (the camera gadget used for ps2), hacked it to make it compatible for my laptop and turned it into a webcam! i suddenly have this great resolution webcam for free!!! so ingenious! =D

now we have the term video-blogging or shorten as "vlog". its really cool!!! well...im having fun with it. all i have to do is just talk whatever infront of the camera and then just upload to the net and that's it! then after 2 vlogs...i came back to writing to my old blog with these thoughts in mind....

expressing my honest thoughts to friends and a world of strangers as well gets easier and easier with each addition of technology....making me more "lazier" than i already am...i started out first with writing, then i moved to typing...then now i just talk infront of a camera! ;-P

in anycase, whether it be in hand-writting, type-written or verbally spoken, i like to be heard and to be understood with these thoughts of mine. i like to be known in my own little egoistic world! not to be misjudged or taken lightly, but just to have something to share or talk about and somehow have these random musings marinated in one's thought! ^__~

my first vlog: 

my second vlog:

the sky isnt the only thing that's gray

wow...its been awhile since i posted anything...oh well...no classes today, so might as well write something and maybe i'll finally upload pics later on...anyways...

lately, i feel so out of sync....whenever im alone i suddenly feel this huge depression creeping up inside me. so as much as possible i find someone to hang out with these days. thank goodness blueberry carpools with me to school and back! i need to keep myself sane somehow. having some company around keeps me from thinking about certain issues i dodge so often...too many issues to handle and so little time....i feel crushed...or rather i feel like im drowning...demmet! stupid teenage angst! must be the weather....yea...the gloomy weather must be pulling down my spirits...

in other things....im looking forward this weekend coz i'll be doing my first catering job for Evie's grandmother's bday!! my school barkada are coming over to help me out or they might be just coming over to play and hang out! ahaha! either way, i predict its going to be one crazy and fun day!!!! wish me luck!!!