finally!!!

im going to the beach tomorrow with my cousins!! ^-^ just an over night trip but im still happy!! its the beach!!! i wasnt able to go out with nikki yesterday coz she was still busy finishing her canvass project...apparently in any arts course in college they have a project to complete over summer!! damn...so we rescheduled it for next thursday..so im looking forward to that too!! ^__^

anyways...things may sound cheery and happy at my side of life...but inside my house...all is not well..

this morning my older sister finally snapped at my parents!! i cant believe it!!! and to think...today is the wedding anniversary of my parents too!! so i feel really sorry for them...so everybody in the house is still kinda high strummed after that eventful morning...so instead of the whole family going to San Agustin church (where my parents got married), which we do every year...it was just the four of us...me, mica, my mum and dad...it was really sad...but it cant be helped..

so i just prayed for them...and everything to be alright soon enough..

that was a bold move...

i texted Nikki earlier today...i asked she if she wanted to hang out with me this week...took a lot out of me just to send that simple text message... ^___~

and i waited...for at least an hour and half for her reply...and hey!! i cant believe it!!! i was literally ALL smiles when i finally got a message from her!!!!! ^_________^

i got an answer which went beyond my expectations!!

haaaaay.........ganda ng araw ko!!!!!!!!! she said she's looking forward to it!!!!!!!!

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i feel better than good...

i went out today with my friends...since most of them start classes next week (monday) already!! its cause La Salle has a trimester course.. i was with Sharina, Marc, Jo, Iman, Ricky, Abi...err...well there's a lot of us!! lol. we wanted to watch the Da Vinci Code..unfortunately...it was R-18..and only me and Jo were of the legal age...sooo...we just hanged out and ate at National Sports Grill and played at timezone...it was still fun!!! plus...

i met this girl...she was invited to hang out with us as well by Marc and Iman...apparently she used to study at csa also..until grade 6 only since she didn't want to take up grade 7 (which is ofcourse a waste of time and money, anyways). now she's at her 2nd year at UP, diliman taking up Fine Arts...i find her really interesting...strangely enough, we have so much in common.. O__o

im pretty sure this wont go anywhere...but its nice to have someone to look at..nowadays... ^__~

somethings to look forward to...

well...because of the sudden crappy weather changes....my hope of going to the beach next weekend is ruined!!! aaaargggh.....a summer without the beach.....uuggghhh.... >___<>

DeAth nOtE live-action movie has finally been announced!! it will premier in Japan on june 16. i read a few parts of the manga and its really cool!! check out the manga and the trailer for the movie!! ^__^

ive been downloading a lot of anime series lately!! sadly my internet speed isnt that much desirable...hence slow download time...*sighs* though it beats me buying the dvd sets in greenhills!!! ^__~

my family friend, Jin and her friends have been chosen by Cartoon Network to be mascots for the Power Rangers: Dino Thunder!! they're soooo coool!!!! they'll be touring around metro manila malls till june!! check out their site for more details!! dont tell me you guys never went into the "power rangers fanatic stage"!!! if pokemon got you, im sure the power rangers did too!! LOL!

well that much can be said so far...im just bumming in the house....oh!! and since im just bumming...i thought of at least getting myself back into shape!! lol...well at least i still have a month before my classes start...and 6 more months before my brother's wedding..(im one of the bride's maids)...so im taking advantage of the free time i have..ive been jogging every morning and getting myself into this diet...LOL!! well...its for the best!! ^__~

help me remember...

i've been thinking for some time that i should write something...and i've thought of something now...since i always tell funny anecdotes of my life...i thought of writing every anecdote i have ...(who knows maybe i'll compile it into a book or something)...

so i was thinking if you guys can help me...try to remember any funny incident that happen to me and you guys were there to witness it....im pretty sure there's lots of it!! im known to be clumsy!! lol. ^__^ just email it to me...coz it would be pretty weird if you guys keep posting it in my comment boxes plus it would be pretty long! oh! and if you can, try to remember when the incident happened!! ^__~

thanks a bunch guys!!!

find the humor in life....that's how you survive it!! ^__~

happy mother's day!!

we watched Posiedon at Greenbelt 3 today after we had dinner at Pasha (the mediterrenean resto)...after watching that movie...my dream of working at a cruiseline ship as a chef immediatly flushed right out of me!!! O___o i know..im such a wimp!! funny thing is...i like watching scary movies...but the impression of the scary movie kinda lingers in me for awhile..so in short..im a coward...though getting scared is sort of a good thing for me...

i immediatly realize in short split seconds the people that are important to me...you know how it is when we watch scary movies...we get into these roles in our minds the "what-if" situations...okaaaay....so maybe not everyone does it...but i do...anyways...i just suddenly remember all sorts of people...and how i usually take these people for granted...like my mom for example...

not everything's peaceful as it seems in the household lately...my parents are pretty much disappointed with us (meaning their children..me and my siblings). my brother is getting married on november already...but even when its like 6 months away...he doesnt really care much about the family his in...when my dad asks a favor from him..my brother disagrees with my dad and a long fight begins...(verbal only)...

then there's my older sister...she's obviously weak (physically) and yet she stubbornly choses to go to work...and yet even when she goes to work...its my parents who drives her to work and picks her up after!!! and her working hours arent that favorable at all...giving my parents a hard time....

then my little sister...she's already 13 yrs old and still she acts like a little kid...its cause she's the youngest and she was (not spoiled but) "babied" (if such a word exists) alot...and now, small scoldings make her cry!! geeez.....

and ofcourse, it wouldnt be fair to my siblings if i dont include myself! what my parents dont like about me is that i go out of the house alot....i know i more of the go-girl in the house...but its not like i just go out and have fun all the time...usually when i get out of the house its when i go to my parish activities...although whenever i go out for whatever reason it may be...my parents see it as lakwacha...i cant blame them..and ive thought about it actually...i always go out of the house to help other people and their families...and yet in my own house...my own family...its broken...so...as much as possible now...i try not to go out of the house and help out more with the household chores, etc.

the only issue that's going around in the house is gratitude...its not being shown around enough...from my 18 years of living here...my siblings aren't the type to show any emotion...its like they're too shy to show any at all!!! and for the record...nobody greeted my mum a "happy mother's day" except for me and my brother's gf!!! geeez....its really sad...now when i think about it more...i realize the lessons that were taught to me by my CLE teacher before..."households today are no longer homes of love and understanding...since the definition of a family has changed into a utilitarian". we live together in the house as a family but we dont act like a family...

its sad....but i'll try my best to stay strong...although compared to others...im sure this is nothing...but i dont want to lose this "nothing"..because its the only thing i am bounded by blood...

no more constraints...

no wonder i havent been seeing any comments lately on my blog...i forgot to edit the settings of the comment box...whoops! *major sweat drop* anyways...

yesterday..i went to my parish and joined in the immersion activity..we went to slum areas of better living and just hang out with the kids there...it was really cool!!! the people were nice and hospitable!! i should really join more in the activites of my parish...i find it to be more benefiting me than it usually does the other way around...and im really thankful to the people there in the parish and to the folks whom i just met yesterday! i cant always be just cooped up in this room and waste my time doing nothing but surfing the net...the activity yesterday was a REAL experience for me..i cant wait to get more involved with them soon!!

today...was my aunt's bday...so we had a small family get together at her house...obviously my cousin, Thessa, was there..i cant help but feel nervous when i see her..im pretty sure that im alright with the whole thing "her-knowing-my-secret"...its just that...to tell you guys the truth...im not close with any of my relatives...all they get from me is small talk...nothing more, nothing less...but to be surprised with a really BIG bang that one of them knows me more than they should really know gave me a real shock...to the point it kinda scares me...i dont know why...its just that feeling..

so yea...im okay with her knowing it already...just takes some time for everything to sink in...well this coming week is my last week for french classes...so with no more constraints...i'll enjoy it to the fullest!!! ^___^

where's my safety net??!

after my french class today, i had lunch with my french class at Gerry's Grill in Jupiter.. just a small get together with the class....bond a little...eat a lot...and did some small talk as well...

apparently, the small talk was long 50 ft. drop for me..

sir was talking about this blog of a guy and he was saying that its really funny..(www.bryanboy.com) and i started saying that i have a blog as well...although i had no intention of telling the site to them my cousin, Thessa, suprised me by saying she knows about it! and when she said it...not only referring to the blog but to the contents of it as well..it practically flipped my head when i heard her say that!!!! heck...i was sweating profusely (sp?) out of being nervous....

good or bad? i dont know yet exactly....i didnt say anything on the ride home...i couldnt....i dont know why but at some level...i felt really bad....though she did say it doesnt matter...but still...all through out that lunch and on the way home...i strangley felt naked...embarrased i suppose...i just dont know how to piece everything together now...my feelings are all mixed...maybe when im in a better mood..i'll think of something...think of what?? that i dont even know yet...

i always thought i should be ready with this confession thing....but when life suddenly got the better of me...it just sucks now...but...it kinda gave me the idea...that no matter how long i "wait" for that "moment"....life won't wait at all....which sucks even more now...