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Sunday, January 29, 2006
Saturday, January 28, 2006
so "kung hei fat choi" to you too!!!
we're having chinese tonight since its the Chinese New Year tomorrow...and let me just tell you...im not chinese! i dont even have a single blood of chinese in me!! so weird...but my parents thinks its interesting to join in the celebration since they have a lot of clients at work who are chinese and so those chinese people have been showering us with tikoy (a sweet sticky dough dipped in egg and fried).
i actually just read the manila bulletin's chinese new year edition. really cool!! they have this chinese astrological stuff written all over the paper. im a fire-rabbit!! and my fortune for the new chinese year will be lucky!! apparently it says that 2006 will be my luckiest year whether at school, work or even relationships! *optimistic thinking* then it added that i should FOCUS...im not kidding!! exact words!! check it out in the paper!! dammit...even the chinese are out to get me! ahehehe.... ^___~ its just really interesting to read these kind of things coz more or less the personality they wrote about the Fire-Rabbit holds true for my personality!! aaaalliwww!!!! ^___^
although i normally dont believe in superstition...i'd like to think that this is my lucky year!! i've noticed since Jan. 1...things have been going my way...i got a summer job opportunity...my friends got into ateneo...the weather was clear during my party at the beach...my grades are still good...but i'd like to say that all these good things happening to me arent caused by luck...but by the prayers i made to God...i've been praying a lot these days...and those things i mentioned above are some of them and amazingly God hears my prayers and have answered them one by one.
so the chinese astro-whatever and superstitions may be interesting...but nothing really beats a classic prayer to God! ^____^
i actually just read the manila bulletin's chinese new year edition. really cool!! they have this chinese astrological stuff written all over the paper. im a fire-rabbit!! and my fortune for the new chinese year will be lucky!! apparently it says that 2006 will be my luckiest year whether at school, work or even relationships! *optimistic thinking* then it added that i should FOCUS...im not kidding!! exact words!! check it out in the paper!! dammit...even the chinese are out to get me! ahehehe.... ^___~ its just really interesting to read these kind of things coz more or less the personality they wrote about the Fire-Rabbit holds true for my personality!! aaaalliwww!!!! ^___^
although i normally dont believe in superstition...i'd like to think that this is my lucky year!! i've noticed since Jan. 1...things have been going my way...i got a summer job opportunity...my friends got into ateneo...the weather was clear during my party at the beach...my grades are still good...but i'd like to say that all these good things happening to me arent caused by luck...but by the prayers i made to God...i've been praying a lot these days...and those things i mentioned above are some of them and amazingly God hears my prayers and have answered them one by one.
so the chinese astro-whatever and superstitions may be interesting...but nothing really beats a classic prayer to God! ^____^
Friday, January 27, 2006
the "talk"
yesterday i had lunch alone with miren coz k8 had songfest practice. i was just babbling on about the exit interview i had in the guidance with my classmates to miren when she asked if i was happy...i thought she was asking if i was happy with my class...so immediatly i said no...but after saying that...miren added other things which made me realize some things about myself. i didnt say anything in return...well a direct reaction to it until today. obviously, i just wrote it through a note. i can never explain myself well when i actually do it will always be through notes or letters...and even through that letter i feel i wasnt able to explain myself well...im always "wishy-washy" (a term i use on myself meaning...umm...basta yun! ahahaha!) i never really thought about anything so far (serious things i mean)..not until yesterday...its one of those questions that just suddenly hit you point blank and makes you think...to others, i suppose it would be easy to answer...but in my case...i thought about it. i dont know why i did...i just did...
and yeah, i am happy with my life! knowing i have great friends who cares! parents who love me! i have so much blessings and im so thankful to God for them! but (as mentioned in my note) i cant help feel regrets about my past...it comes and goes with depression, i guess...but doesnt everyone go through that?
growing up...geeez....what a mess! >___O for someone who just turned legally 18...things keep pilling up! miren said before "aging is inevitable but growing up is optional" i say I CHOOSE that option!! ahehehe...well someday i will grow up...i wrote this in sharina's palanca..."maybe the reason why i dont want to grow up is cause i'll be needing to think about more serious things (like coming out to my family) and those kind of things..the thought just scares me"
i obviously cant keep running away from it...but until then...i would want to ignore the matter...
i'll get a job first!!!
and yeah, i am happy with my life! knowing i have great friends who cares! parents who love me! i have so much blessings and im so thankful to God for them! but (as mentioned in my note) i cant help feel regrets about my past...it comes and goes with depression, i guess...but doesnt everyone go through that?
growing up...geeez....what a mess! >___O for someone who just turned legally 18...things keep pilling up! miren said before "aging is inevitable but growing up is optional" i say I CHOOSE that option!! ahehehe...well someday i will grow up...i wrote this in sharina's palanca..."maybe the reason why i dont want to grow up is cause i'll be needing to think about more serious things (like coming out to my family) and those kind of things..the thought just scares me"
i obviously cant keep running away from it...but until then...i would want to ignore the matter...
i'll get a job first!!!
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Monday, January 23, 2006
hit me back to reality
ive been spacing out alot now a days...i know "spacing out" is a bad habit of mine but this time its been really frequent!! in class, i get what they teach me but i cant apply it at all coz i cant remember it...i basically know what im doing its just i dont know if its right or wrong...careless i guess...its like...im sooo bored with everything...im so tired and yet i hardly did anything...its like...i dont know what i want...im just drifting away....oh well...miren said to me its because i dont focus.
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focus....yea....
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huh? what was i gonna say again?
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focus....yea....
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huh? what was i gonna say again?
Friday, January 20, 2006
update part four
now you must be wondering why the title is update part four...well this is update part four!! i made four different posts on one day in one sitting... because i was not able to update for at least a week...and i experienced so many things...good and bad...and i thought its best to separate each emotion from the other...its interesting..so just scroll down the window below and you'll see my post for my debut..fun pictures!! its best if you start there...coz i'll be mentioning something here and you might not be able to understand what im saying if you dont start at the beginning!!
last thursday, miren helped me write a letter to chef Paul, the guy i met in Kusina Salud...he said he'd get me a summer job and said I should email him...so I did with miren's help...im just really bad with grammar and stuf...actually if i think about it...the email was more or less written by miren already!! but if you read it...you'll realize its still written by me because of a simple idiotic mistake!! i feel really embarassed after realizing what i just wrote! oh well...
anyways....(after the report card issue with my parents)..i went home alone...and i turned on my laptop and just surfed the net and found a few things that made my day again!!!
last thursday, miren helped me write a letter to chef Paul, the guy i met in Kusina Salud...he said he'd get me a summer job and said I should email him...so I did with miren's help...im just really bad with grammar and stuf...actually if i think about it...the email was more or less written by miren already!! but if you read it...you'll realize its still written by me because of a simple idiotic mistake!! i feel really embarassed after realizing what i just wrote! oh well...
anyways....(after the report card issue with my parents)..i went home alone...and i turned on my laptop and just surfed the net and found a few things that made my day again!!!
- Hooray for Season 3 of MariMite!!!! (although i think its only an ova)
- found this funny forum site!! anime titles translated literally into tagalog!! hahahaha!! (check it out for some laughs!!)
- reading new shoujo-ai manga, kashimashi (hilarious! thanks to baka-updates for the scanlations)
update part three
today's the distribution of report cards too!! i got my report card luckily!! whew!! im really happy i did!! im even still in the top 10!! i was top 7 last quarter now just top 10...last quarter my average was 86.5 now its 86.7...so just .2 higher...my math went back to its usual way...from the 78 that i worked hard for it went down back to a 75 just like the 1st quarter!! im really bad with numbers!! but everything else, its good!!
i was really happy when i showed my report card to my parents...i just didnt liked what they said to me...really got me pissed...at first they were happy about my good grades...when i mentioned i was top 10 (i wrote also on the report card) they were like laughing and said, "top 10 san? sa dulo?" i was really mad!! and reminded them i was top 7 last quarter and that i actually feel bad that i got lower now on the ranking...they said, "top 7 ka? kailan?" this really steamed me now!! because back during the 2nd quarter i was really happy and proud too when i showed my report card to them...and they didnt even believe me and i thought....i was really mad...
nakakaasar sarili kong magulang ayaw akong paniwalaan!!! masmabuti pa ata bumabagsak ako kasi dun naniniwala sila sa akin!! mahirap naman pag bumagasak galit naman sa akin...pag tumaas naman ayaw paniwalaan...ano ba talaga gusto nila sa 'kin?!!
this is really not an issue of grades here...more on the trust and belief of my parents on me....im really pissed off....
just gave me more reason to hide deeper in the closet...
i was really happy when i showed my report card to my parents...i just didnt liked what they said to me...really got me pissed...at first they were happy about my good grades...when i mentioned i was top 10 (i wrote also on the report card) they were like laughing and said, "top 10 san? sa dulo?" i was really mad!! and reminded them i was top 7 last quarter and that i actually feel bad that i got lower now on the ranking...they said, "top 7 ka? kailan?" this really steamed me now!! because back during the 2nd quarter i was really happy and proud too when i showed my report card to them...and they didnt even believe me and i thought....i was really mad...
nakakaasar sarili kong magulang ayaw akong paniwalaan!!! masmabuti pa ata bumabagsak ako kasi dun naniniwala sila sa akin!! mahirap naman pag bumagasak galit naman sa akin...pag tumaas naman ayaw paniwalaan...ano ba talaga gusto nila sa 'kin?!!
this is really not an issue of grades here...more on the trust and belief of my parents on me....im really pissed off....
just gave me more reason to hide deeper in the closet...
update part two
okay...so after that wonderful weekend...STAP week came..student-teacher...uuh...i forgot what the A and P stand for...but basically you get what it means...its just the student-teacher program...students become teachers for 3 days or so..im not an STAP but k8, miren and gina were!! they actually brought reviewers with them during the trip to the beach but obviously, they weren't able to use 'em...k8 had physics, miren had english and gina had filipino.
oh! btw, we're not classmates...all 5 of us are from different sections...so we just get updates from each other by usual talk...
apparently during k8's STAP moments she had a hard time dealing with her class...they wouldnt listen to her..they would at the first 10 minutes after that its all chaos!!
miren's STAP moments on the other hand was...umm...how do i write this? not something anyone would wish for...i suppose...she was mostly in "pissed-mode" during the STAP days...for her first day, i made a huge mistake...she was going to have a film show for her class...she borrowed my portable dvd player..unfortunately at the time when we were trying it out on the mobile tv...i suddenly noticed i got the wrong cable wires...so miren snapped at me...O__o oh dear...you can only imagine how bad i felt at that time since it was my fault that i ruined her first day of STAP...luckily...i was able to borrow a set of cable wires from the media center at the cost me being late for my CLE class and my CLE teacher catching me cutting classes....man!! she really got mad at me...and all i could say in reply was, "miss...its an emergency...?" oh well...at least i was able to redeem myself to miren... >__O at the end of the day she said, "okay...bati na tayo..." it was funny...but im happy too after that!! although her next days of STAP didnt really go that well since there was some kind of problem within her class that got her student-coordinator mad at her....but everything's fixed now and i think she's really happy that its over... ^___^
gina's STAP was easy...as she said so herself...then last tuesday she called me asking if she could borrow my laptop since she wasn't able to reserve a mobile tv...she was going to show a video clip to her students too...and i was like thinking in my head at that time, "after miren...now gina...oh dear...what an escapade!" and this is my laptop we're talking about!!! the only thing i would ever call "baby" ahahahaha!!! anyways, crazy thought, i gave in and lent her my laptop for one hour of her class...while she did her lecture i had my PE class..directly after PE i ran to her classroom, asking if my "baby's" alright...ahahahaha!!! thank God nothing bad happened!!! ^__~ now a thought just occured to me...i trust and love my friends so much i'd lend them my most valuable things...hahaha!! aliw...
well in my class, the STAPs were okay...but not really that good compared to the past STAPs we had before..two subjects i got disappointed with are social studies and math...mike, my classmate, handle social while fred, also my classmate, taught math. mike was teaching social studies directly out of the book...which was kinda confusing to understand...and it was sad to see that his student-coordinator had to take over the class for him...but i found it to be appropriate since i wanted to learn something at least...then during fred's math class..he was sooo out of it...you could really tell he didnt want to teach. he gave simple equations and our SWK was only four items!! i know he's really smart with the subject...i just wish he could've atleast put some effort into teaching it since i dont want to fail again and i know my other classmates dont want to fail too!!! he was really loose since our teacher wasn't around. (*note: during STAP the REAL teacher just sits at the back and observes the student-teacher). our teacher wasnt around because it was her class retreat...oh well...im just glad that at least the topic that fred taught was an easy one to understand..i just worry when the actual tests come...its far from what he teached the class...
oh! btw, we're not classmates...all 5 of us are from different sections...so we just get updates from each other by usual talk...
apparently during k8's STAP moments she had a hard time dealing with her class...they wouldnt listen to her..they would at the first 10 minutes after that its all chaos!!
miren's STAP moments on the other hand was...umm...how do i write this? not something anyone would wish for...i suppose...she was mostly in "pissed-mode" during the STAP days...for her first day, i made a huge mistake...she was going to have a film show for her class...she borrowed my portable dvd player..unfortunately at the time when we were trying it out on the mobile tv...i suddenly noticed i got the wrong cable wires...so miren snapped at me...O__o oh dear...you can only imagine how bad i felt at that time since it was my fault that i ruined her first day of STAP...luckily...i was able to borrow a set of cable wires from the media center at the cost me being late for my CLE class and my CLE teacher catching me cutting classes....man!! she really got mad at me...and all i could say in reply was, "miss...its an emergency...?" oh well...at least i was able to redeem myself to miren... >__O at the end of the day she said, "okay...bati na tayo..." it was funny...but im happy too after that!! although her next days of STAP didnt really go that well since there was some kind of problem within her class that got her student-coordinator mad at her....but everything's fixed now and i think she's really happy that its over... ^___^
gina's STAP was easy...as she said so herself...then last tuesday she called me asking if she could borrow my laptop since she wasn't able to reserve a mobile tv...she was going to show a video clip to her students too...and i was like thinking in my head at that time, "after miren...now gina...oh dear...what an escapade!" and this is my laptop we're talking about!!! the only thing i would ever call "baby" ahahahaha!!! anyways, crazy thought, i gave in and lent her my laptop for one hour of her class...while she did her lecture i had my PE class..directly after PE i ran to her classroom, asking if my "baby's" alright...ahahahaha!!! thank God nothing bad happened!!! ^__~ now a thought just occured to me...i trust and love my friends so much i'd lend them my most valuable things...hahaha!! aliw...
well in my class, the STAPs were okay...but not really that good compared to the past STAPs we had before..two subjects i got disappointed with are social studies and math...mike, my classmate, handle social while fred, also my classmate, taught math. mike was teaching social studies directly out of the book...which was kinda confusing to understand...and it was sad to see that his student-coordinator had to take over the class for him...but i found it to be appropriate since i wanted to learn something at least...then during fred's math class..he was sooo out of it...you could really tell he didnt want to teach. he gave simple equations and our SWK was only four items!! i know he's really smart with the subject...i just wish he could've atleast put some effort into teaching it since i dont want to fail again and i know my other classmates dont want to fail too!!! he was really loose since our teacher wasn't around. (*note: during STAP the REAL teacher just sits at the back and observes the student-teacher). our teacher wasnt around because it was her class retreat...oh well...im just glad that at least the topic that fred taught was an easy one to understand..i just worry when the actual tests come...its far from what he teached the class...
update part one
this is my update about my bday celebration last saturday, jan. 14...basically had a blast with my friends and family!!! the cake was alright...funny and embarassing but all in all it was good!!! >__O i worry too much. we had dinner by the shore which was really cool...we were eating by moonlight and paper laterns..oh!! and torch lights!! ^__^ roasted marshmallows on a crazy bon fire!!! it was hard man!!! blazing hot!!! >___< style="font-style: italic;">thanks kuya bani!!! kaso nga lang na kulangan kami!! oh well... then we just laid under the moonlit sky...the stars were cool and the air was really cold!! ahahahaha!!! anyways, the next day we had lunch at Kusina Salud, where chef Paul served an amazing feast! anyways...i'll let my pictures do the rest of the talking...i still have other parts to update..ahehehe... ^___~
Friday, January 13, 2006
bday...
time check...its 11:43pm...in a few minutes...i'll be 18 years old and in a few hours...my friends will be here and we'll be going to the beach with eveyone else in my family...and yet with all this happening later on...the weird thing is...im not excited...for some bizarre reason....i feel so depress right now...i actually just finished packing...and im only bring one small body bag!!! can you believe that??! well its only for an overnight trip...but even so...just a small bag?! and let me just repeat that this is a trip to the beach!! oh well...something's bothering me...and i cant sleep...i feel sooo depress right now...annoyed but i cant understand why...and sad...
anyways...my mum and dad suddenly got me and my lil sister a bday cake (my lil sis' bday is jan 13...yes, just a day before me) we picked it up today....im happy for the thought of the surprise cake my parents got me...but...i dont like it...they got a cake from "Kink Cakes" known for its kinky icing decos on cakes...the cake they got us...was an 18-inch mocha cake...its icing is all pink...and there this huge icing caricature doll of me on it!!! its huge!!!! the cake is actually half-half...one side of it is mica's and one side of it is mine....mica's side is waaay better than mine!! there's this icing doll of the cartoon lizzie maguire with her photo on the side...which is really cool!! but for me on the other hand...i got myself a caricature of me looking like an idiot dressed in a chef's uniform...i swear....it soooo embarassing...when i saw it...im just sure of what could happen next when my friends see it or my cousins for that matter!!! aaaawwww maaan.....i'll be the butt of every joke later....damn it...i'll show you guys a photo of the cake...wait a sec...i'll just get the digi cam...(walks away for a moment) here...
my side of...
mica's cake...
so yeah...that's mine and mica's bday cake...*weak smile* i really am happy of the thought and trouble my parents went thru for this cake....but....but...i just wish they could've just ask me first....
*thinking positively* maybe all my worries will turn into a nice memory? i hope...
*thinking realistically* im doom....
i'll update again when i get back...well i'll try...coz i do have alot of hwk right away when i get back...either way...till next time guys!! ciao!
anyways...my mum and dad suddenly got me and my lil sister a bday cake (my lil sis' bday is jan 13...yes, just a day before me) we picked it up today....im happy for the thought of the surprise cake my parents got me...but...i dont like it...they got a cake from "Kink Cakes" known for its kinky icing decos on cakes...the cake they got us...was an 18-inch mocha cake...its icing is all pink...and there this huge icing caricature doll of me on it!!! its huge!!!! the cake is actually half-half...one side of it is mica's and one side of it is mine....mica's side is waaay better than mine!! there's this icing doll of the cartoon lizzie maguire with her photo on the side...which is really cool!! but for me on the other hand...i got myself a caricature of me looking like an idiot dressed in a chef's uniform...i swear....it soooo embarassing...when i saw it...im just sure of what could happen next when my friends see it or my cousins for that matter!!! aaaawwww maaan.....i'll be the butt of every joke later....damn it...i'll show you guys a photo of the cake...wait a sec...i'll just get the digi cam...(walks away for a moment) here...
my side of...
mica's cake...so yeah...that's mine and mica's bday cake...*weak smile* i really am happy of the thought and trouble my parents went thru for this cake....but....but...i just wish they could've just ask me first....
*thinking positively* maybe all my worries will turn into a nice memory? i hope...
*thinking realistically* im doom....
i'll update again when i get back...well i'll try...coz i do have alot of hwk right away when i get back...either way...till next time guys!! ciao!
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
yea...right?!
this drawing is posted on my table...just a little reminder...can't slack off too much now, can i? i honestly have alot to do...but i dont feel like doing anything at all!!!!! like i've mentioned over and over....i'm so OVER highschool!!! ahahahaha!!! knowing that the end is sooo neeeaaarr.....i became extra lazy!!! dammit!!!!my dad said he wants a "Lay-Z boy" arm chair...i made a joke out of it..i told him i'll give him kuya since he's always lazy...they all laughed...but now they have a new joke for me...im the counter-part of my bro...call me "Lay-Z girl"!!!! O__o
Saturday, January 07, 2006
Lord has answered our prayers!!!!
the lyrics below are taken from the OC, "California"..i changed the word "california" into "ateneo" because it started out as joke between me and my friends...my friends were really nervous about the entrance test results for ateneo and at that time all they could think as past time was watch the OC...and so this spoof song came out...and also the atneo exam results are out already...and im sooo happy for my friends!!! they got in!!! im also very impressed and proud of them!!! not a lot of people could get into that school!!! CONGRTULATIONS GUYS!!! YOU DESERVE IT!!! can't wait to get loose and go wild in the beach, ne?? ^___~
We've been on the run. Driving in the sun. Looking out for #1.
ATENEO here we come. Right back where we started from.
Hustlers grab your guns. Your shadow weighs a ton. Driving down the 101.
California here we come. Right back where we started from.
ATENEO! Here we come!
On the stereo. Listen as we go.
Nothing's gonna stop me now.
ATENEO here we come. Right back where we started from.
Pedal to the floor. Thinkin' of the roar. Gotta get us to the show.
ATENEO here we come. Right back where we started from.
ATENEO! Here we come!
We've been on the run. Driving in the sun. Looking out for #1.
ATENEO here we come. Right back where we started from.
Hustlers grab your guns. Your shadow weighs a ton. Driving down the 101.
California here we come. Right back where we started from.
ATENEO! Here we come!
On the stereo. Listen as we go.
Nothing's gonna stop me now.
ATENEO here we come. Right back where we started from.
Pedal to the floor. Thinkin' of the roar. Gotta get us to the show.
ATENEO here we come. Right back where we started from.
ATENEO! Here we come!
Friday, January 06, 2006
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
day trip!!
my dad, uncle, cousin and i went to the resort (for my debut) today..my dad has never been to the place except for me and my cousins so he wanted to at least check out the place first before anything else...i was surprised that even in the cold weather there would still be a lot of people in the beach...as long as its a holiday people would go to the beach, i suppose...the whole place was still the same as i remembered it to be plus there were new improvements!! like the cabanas have these nice curtains...^___~ and the bathrooms are really cool and spacious!!! im really excited now!!
after that we went to Kusina Salud, a really cool resto in San Pablo, to have lunch. the food was really goood!!!!!!! and i was even able to meet the chef!! he was really nice and offered me a summer job in Le Souffle (in alabang, run by Billy King!!)...im sooo lucky!!!!!! im really really excited now!! i was a bit skeptic since i'll just be a highschool graduate and i'll be doing part-time already in a restaurant with a name!!! but chef paul, the one i spoke with in Kusina Salud, said its really okay and advisable actually since i'll be starting...it'll be like my stepping stones!! *sighs* im soooo hyped up now!!!!!!!! i cant wait to graduate!!!! im more excited of the job now then my debut!!!!!!!!!!!
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tomorrow...i'll be going back to school...bleh...
but tomorrow also is mika's debut!!! she wont be celebrating it like me...so we'll be surprising her with ribbons, roses and other stuff!!!!! it should be fun tomorrow!!! ^______^
till next time guys!! i wont be able to post much again this time...since school is back...and my mum gave me a fair warning already...ever since i got this laptop..ive been staying up late!! sooo...gotta get myself some discipline!! i suppose that could be my new year's resolution!! along with the undying desire to get thin!! ahehehehehe.... ^___~
ciao!!
after that we went to Kusina Salud, a really cool resto in San Pablo, to have lunch. the food was really goood!!!!!!! and i was even able to meet the chef!! he was really nice and offered me a summer job in Le Souffle (in alabang, run by Billy King!!)...im sooo lucky!!!!!! im really really excited now!! i was a bit skeptic since i'll just be a highschool graduate and i'll be doing part-time already in a restaurant with a name!!! but chef paul, the one i spoke with in Kusina Salud, said its really okay and advisable actually since i'll be starting...it'll be like my stepping stones!! *sighs* im soooo hyped up now!!!!!!!! i cant wait to graduate!!!! im more excited of the job now then my debut!!!!!!!!!!!
^__________^
tomorrow...i'll be going back to school...bleh...
but tomorrow also is mika's debut!!! she wont be celebrating it like me...so we'll be surprising her with ribbons, roses and other stuff!!!!! it should be fun tomorrow!!! ^______^
till next time guys!! i wont be able to post much again this time...since school is back...and my mum gave me a fair warning already...ever since i got this laptop..ive been staying up late!! sooo...gotta get myself some discipline!! i suppose that could be my new year's resolution!! along with the undying desire to get thin!! ahehehehehe.... ^___~
ciao!!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
reminisce
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! wow!! its a new year again!!! O__O never thought time would pass me by sooo fast!!! and it only feels like yesterday when the first day of school started and i became honest to my friends about the real me... soo many things happened after that..most of which are good....its like i was reborn this year...and i suppose i'll be growing up in the coming years...
whatever happened back then is obviously the past now and i cant dwell on it anymore...what is important is right now and the future....i'll be honest...i'm scared of my future...even though im soo happy right now and it feels like everythings going great...i cant help but think that my time will come soon enough...the time when i finally have to be honest with my own family... i always have this thought that after i come out...that everything will still be okay...but then again when i think about it...everything will be okay but soo many things will be different from then on...*sighs* fear...why cant i overcome you? well its a new year...i have to find my courage for this soon.... somehow i'll be able to pass this road block...(positive thinking...) *weak smile* right...??
well i have alot of things to be thankful this year!! Great parents, Great friends and wonderful lasting memories!!! no matter what...as long as im still alive...i'll live everyday without regrets!!!! because regret would be the only thing that would chain me to the past.
anyways...(done with the random thoughts) we had our new year's party at my aunt's house this time...its like dec. 24 at my uncle's; 31st at my aunt's and jan. 1 at my house...but since im having my debut at the beach...my dad said today's party is just moved on the day of my debut... ^__~ so my family and i will just have our new year's dinner out somewhere later....and then tomorrow...i'll be opening a bank account already...its about time!! i need my savings account too, you know!? and then on tuesday...my dad and i will be going all the way to the resort where my debut will be held...my dad wants to see the place first before anything else...im the only one and my other cousins who actually saw the area...we went there like 2 summers ago...great place!! then finally starting wednesday...school resumes again!! bleh... X___x but its okay...i miss my friends!! and i havent spoke with miren and keight for ages already!!! O__o well it felt that long!! oh well...by the way, the DLSU list issue isnt still settled...i still dont believe that bull!!!! >___O *checks time* whoaa!!! its 2:20am already!! time flies really fast!! okay,okay...time for bed now...till next time guys!!! ciao ^___~
whatever happened back then is obviously the past now and i cant dwell on it anymore...what is important is right now and the future....i'll be honest...i'm scared of my future...even though im soo happy right now and it feels like everythings going great...i cant help but think that my time will come soon enough...the time when i finally have to be honest with my own family... i always have this thought that after i come out...that everything will still be okay...but then again when i think about it...everything will be okay but soo many things will be different from then on...*sighs* fear...why cant i overcome you? well its a new year...i have to find my courage for this soon.... somehow i'll be able to pass this road block...(positive thinking...) *weak smile* right...??
well i have alot of things to be thankful this year!! Great parents, Great friends and wonderful lasting memories!!! no matter what...as long as im still alive...i'll live everyday without regrets!!!! because regret would be the only thing that would chain me to the past.
anyways...(done with the random thoughts) we had our new year's party at my aunt's house this time...its like dec. 24 at my uncle's; 31st at my aunt's and jan. 1 at my house...but since im having my debut at the beach...my dad said today's party is just moved on the day of my debut... ^__~ so my family and i will just have our new year's dinner out somewhere later....and then tomorrow...i'll be opening a bank account already...its about time!! i need my savings account too, you know!? and then on tuesday...my dad and i will be going all the way to the resort where my debut will be held...my dad wants to see the place first before anything else...im the only one and my other cousins who actually saw the area...we went there like 2 summers ago...great place!! then finally starting wednesday...school resumes again!! bleh... X___x but its okay...i miss my friends!! and i havent spoke with miren and keight for ages already!!! O__o well it felt that long!! oh well...by the way, the DLSU list issue isnt still settled...i still dont believe that bull!!!! >___O *checks time* whoaa!!! its 2:20am already!! time flies really fast!! okay,okay...time for bed now...till next time guys!!! ciao ^___~
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