changes...

wow...i havent written anything here for a long time now...i wonder if anybody still reads this....either way, i still like writing my thoughts here whether people are reading it or not.

aside from graduating this coming saturday...a lot of other things have happened to me already...for such a short period of time actually...

i got drunk for the first time yesterday. Miren and I finished a bottle of tequila on our own! it was a funny experience for me....but its a night that won't be easily forgotten through alcohol alone.

then earlier today, after the parish involvement of my little sister, Mica...i received a call from Mary (my friend from ISCAHM, whom i was suppose to meet up tomorrow)..*i was driving at the moment she called me* she called to inform me that she cant make it tomorrow coz her girlfriend wants to go on a date! yes, her girlfriend....i was totally thrown off by that! coz i didnt realize that Mary's gay...I mean i kinda got the vibe but wasnt really sure since she was really femmenine, thin and has long hair. so after learning something we have in common, i just started sharing my own life to her while i was driving. then after the phone call...i realized and just remembered...that my little sister, Mica was with me through the whole conversation. i dont know why i wasnt able to shut my mouth during that conversation. momentarily lapse of decision making? or an urge to actually come out? whatever it was...i cant take back what ive said. so i told Mica the truth of who I really am. and as usual, i started crying while i told her my story. i dont know if she understands or even care...but i know i can trust her not to tell anybody. i know her well enough for that alone. i explained to Mica that its alright if she wants to talk about it,its alright if she wants to ask me something or to just tell me anything....because in this family of mine, i noticed...nobody actually say anything about what they really feel or what they think of whatever. serious matters that are obviously happening right infront of my eyes are left unspoken and not explained. its like, suddenly i just found out not from my parents but from my cousin...that my uncle has left my aunt for another woman! i know its not really my business...but still, i wondered what happened to uncle Alex...and another incident was when my brother's wife suddenly left him! His wife didnt come back for days....and then after a week she's suddenly back...i know its none of my business...but i dont like this...its like nothing is explained...matters are left unspoken...

im so afraid of coming out to my parents...but like Miren told me...the day i come out to my parents is sooner than i actually expect it to be after this....it cant wait anymore....after graduating...the hope of getting a job in abroad is still uncertain...and i really do pray i get it so i can get out of here....because i feel that when i come out to my parents...things will change for the worse...to make things easier, it'll be better if i wasnt around, wouldnt it? or am i just runnning away? i dont know anymore...i dont know what i should think about...im pathetic....

my september schedule

check out my multiply site for lotsa a pictures!! www.apprenticechef.multiply.com

and also to see my schedule for sept...here's a link to my calendar of events: http://apprenticechef.multiply.com/calendar/2007/9

fuck-off!!!

i had a fucking piss-off day at school today....first of all...i wasnt able to have a decent sleep (dont know why)...then when i was able to finally sleep my mum barges in my room and reminds me i have to drive my sister to work today. there goes my "rest". when i finally drove my sister to her office, i got caught in traffic on my way back! i got home 10am already...and i still havent had breakfast nor have i taken a bath! so i did everything in a rush just to get ready for school coz if i didnt leave by 11am...i'll be caught in traffic again then i'll be late...aftewards, in school, we had chef pauline as our lecturer of the day. something that made my day a bit brighter...but my idiotic classmates just had to open their foul-mouths!! chef pauline was saying that she wouldn't want to see my batch again next year (if anyone would fail the finals)...then a bald-headed-no-decency idoitic man just had to yell out "Ma'am...anna wouldn't mind staying till next year!" now, its not only my section that's in the room...there's TWO sections in one room at that moment. i didnt flinch nor looked at anybody. but my head was screaming out loud! then to add to that, we had a little quiz for review...we were asked one by one to answer a question...when it came to my turn...someone just had to make that "yihee" sound. i wanted to chop his head off when i heard it! you know, im a nice girl. ive never fought back nor paid any attention to their teasing to me before. but have some decency man! think about what you say! if you say its a joke...then you dont know how to kid! coz im not laughing. i have every right to be mad!!! ive never wanted to hit/slap/kick somebody sooo bad till that moment!!! you guys are sooo dead tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! thank God im a lesbian...i dont have to deal with the idiotic male species!

blogging as we know it...

ever since i could remember i always have a notebook where i write down all my thoughts or things that have happened to me...some call it a diary, others call it a journal. either way, it was a very handy tool for me to just randomly write what i had in mind, whether it be silly or down right depressingly serious. i never could fill up one notebook and yet i have accumulated alot of it already. its either i fancied other notebooks for its neat and cool design or i filled up the old one with random doodles instead of writings. =3

after awhile, i learned that i can just type what i had in mind into a computer and even have it publish in the net. thus, the birth of my blogging habits! blogging has its perks...

• for one thing: i dont need to write plus its actually readable! (for people who've seen my hand-writting, only the gifted can actually understand my hand-writting! lol.)
  
• second: its easy to edit my entries with a click of a button, no mess, no fuss.
  
• third: i get to share my thoughts with other people out there! compared to my old notebook where i had to bring it around and pick the right "moment" to let some people see it; a blog is so much easier. i just type, publish in the net and just come back to it when i feel like it to check if someone left a comment.
  
• fourth: it has become a means of communication for me to my friends whom i havent seen for so long already. just to keep each other updated! ^_^

although, blogging does have its down sides...

• no power, no laptop
  
• no connection, no internet
  
• not exactly the most private place to hide deep "dark secrets" although, ive hardly hidden anything whenever i write in my blog. its always better when everythings OUT there! ;-P
  

now the evolution of blogging has arrived to my fingertips!! *bwahahaha* i used my brother's old Eye Toy (the camera gadget used for ps2), hacked it to make it compatible for my laptop and turned it into a webcam! i suddenly have this great resolution webcam for free!!! so ingenious! =D

now we have the term video-blogging or shorten as "vlog". its really cool!!! well...im having fun with it. all i have to do is just talk whatever infront of the camera and then just upload to the net and that's it! then after 2 vlogs...i came back to writing to my old blog with these thoughts in mind....

expressing my honest thoughts to friends and a world of strangers as well gets easier and easier with each addition of technology....making me more "lazier" than i already am...i started out first with writing, then i moved to typing...then now i just talk infront of a camera! ;-P

in anycase, whether it be in hand-writting, type-written or verbally spoken, i like to be heard and to be understood with these thoughts of mine. i like to be known in my own little egoistic world! not to be misjudged or taken lightly, but just to have something to share or talk about and somehow have these random musings marinated in one's thought! ^__~

my first vlog: 

my second vlog:

the sky isnt the only thing that's gray

wow...its been awhile since i posted anything...oh well...no classes today, so might as well write something and maybe i'll finally upload pics later on...anyways...

lately, i feel so out of sync....whenever im alone i suddenly feel this huge depression creeping up inside me. so as much as possible i find someone to hang out with these days. thank goodness blueberry carpools with me to school and back! i need to keep myself sane somehow. having some company around keeps me from thinking about certain issues i dodge so often...too many issues to handle and so little time....i feel crushed...or rather i feel like im drowning...demmet! stupid teenage angst! must be the weather....yea...the gloomy weather must be pulling down my spirits...

in other things....im looking forward this weekend coz i'll be doing my first catering job for Evie's grandmother's bday!! my school barkada are coming over to help me out or they might be just coming over to play and hang out! ahaha! either way, i predict its going to be one crazy and fun day!!!! wish me luck!!!

Ratatouille

Ratatouille = a classical French vegetable stew that's tomato based.

We made that in school sooo many times already and when we found out that a movie was made with the same title...immediatly after exams my classmates and i, still wearing our uniforms, went to gateway and watched it!

The movie was basically about a rat who has an appreciation for GOOD food and aspired to be a chef but, unfortunately, he's a rat and pests arent allowed in the kitchen. Then comes in Linguini (funny name...for a pasta and a character), a newly hired garbage boy who can't cook to save his job. So together they worked out a system that would benefit each other.

It was sooo much fun to watch!!! (especially with my classmates) highly recommended for anyone who loves food!! i like to point out though that rosemary, oregano and such aren't spices...those are herbs which was a mistake in the movie...but oh well!! i love it! we even saw resemblances of our chefs in the movie...Linguini looks like Chef Hans...Colette looks like Chef Pauline...the father of the Rat acts like Chef Mike...and so forth and so on! =D

i especially love a line they said in the movie.. "Anyone can cook but only the brave can be great!" =3

how does one write a love letter?

well...im graduating soon...and i dont want to leave without saying anything to her..but considering my classmates knowing about my infatuation over her..i decided to take a discreet approach which would be a letter...in all honesty, i really do want to say it personally...but with everything as a consequence plus scandal...might as well take a quiet approach to it...i know its a losing battle but i still want to do it coz....i dont know...i just really want her to know..that's it, i suppose...

honesty is my best policy

on my way home today, my classmate, Blueberry, hitched a ride with me....we were in C-5 and i was just following the jeep infront of me not realizing that the stop light went red already. unfortunately for me and the jeep infront of me there was an MMDA officer on guard...i politely followed the officer to the side of the curb and did the usual routine of showing my liscence and registration...afterwards Blueberry was telling me i should make up an excuse and just slip-in a hundred peso bill...first thing, im such a bad liar...the worst one can ever find! second i just couldn't knowing i obviously broke the rules. so when the officer came back Blueberry did all the talking (she made herself look pitiful) and slipped him a hundred peso bill underneath my liscence. and we were let go, just like that! i dont know why i found it such a hard task to lie...and let me tell you considering my *huge* preference secret in my family...i haven't been exactly lying to them...i just havent told them, that's it.

anyways, ive got homework to do now...so later then! ^__~

fast cars and big robots are such turn-ons!!!!!!

ahahahahaha!!! those were the words that came out my mouth yesterday after i watched Transformers with my classmate, Judy!! the whole movie's soooo coool!!!!!!!!!! plus megan fox and rachel taylor are sooooo hottttt!!!! *sizzle* (adds them in hottie list)

Transformers + Megan Fox + Rachel Taylor = PERFECT!!!! 'nuff said!

i was harassed!!

i cant believe this!! i was sooo harassed in school today during lunch.... >__<

i dont know if you guys remember [link]...but my class loves teasing me to my other classmate, Bodjie. even after the fact that they know im gay. anyways...today during lunch....was the usual teasing...im used to it already, i just ignore them and smile. but today something different happened...you see, whenever they tease me to bodjie...me and bodjie just ignore them or sometimes i just tell them to stop it. basically, bodjie has no comment on it whatsoever! but today, he practically jumped in on the "fun" which surprised me. we sat beside each other during lunch which was actually normal since we've sat beside each other a hundred times already. at my other side was my classmate Paolo, he's like my good-guy best friend. well Paolo was teasing me to Chef Gerd (our German chef) since i greet Chef Gerd frequently. And then suddenly Bodjie jumps in with a knife in his hand asking me, "ano? gusto mo upakan ko?" which really took everyone's attention since Bodjie never comments on the teasing! so everybody was at the edge of their seats pushing Bodjie and me together! I was just laughing my head off and saying stuff like, "who gave Bodjie chocolate? he's hyper na!!" Bodjie on the other hand was putting his arm over my shoulder and making "pa-cute" to me! hahahaha! it reached to the point that everybody wanted to take a picture of me and him together. i really didnt want to do it but Bodjie was sooo into it already playing with props...such as a fork with a piece of meat. he was trying to feed me for the picture opt! after that he would put his head on my shoulder etcetera! grabe! then my classmates started asking me what i really wanted...a guy or a girl? i told them flat-out i want a girlfriend. then they said to Bodjie that i'll be the "man" in the relationship and he'd be the "girl". and Bodjie totally played the part immediatly! LOL. i swear the whole lunch period was a laugh trip! but in between i felt really awkward around Bodjie now...cause it really got my attention that he'd suddenly do something like that! it never crossed my mind since he knows im gay so its been like an unspoken agreement that neither would comment on the on-going teasing between the two of us. *sighs* i just hope this doesnt continue on for long....

anyways, on the brighter side of my life...we finished earlier than expected in class today...so the class just got to know Chef Bubbles better during the remainder of time. i was surprised to know Chef Bubbles's age!! she really doesnt look like her age aside from not acting it! ahaha! and also, i now know a little bit something more about Chef Pauline...she loves music and dancing...plus i now know her age, that didnt surprise me since i kinda figured it would be around that line... after knowing her age...it didnt really bother me, i just love her more now after knowing some stuff about her! i told my classmates that i'd be confessing my crush towards her around the time near graduation. i suppose its a cowardly move since i'll be graduating soon after it but its something i want to do...and i dont want to regret it. im obviously not expecting any answer in return but i just wanted her to know it. i have this thing for mature beauty!! ^___^

jams

i finally made my jam project yesterday. i made an apple-banana jam!! unfortunately, my jam didnt set to the right consistency (it was thick but not enough) and the jars werent' vacuum-sealed properly (i used the steel-clamp jars). plus the color was too dark (i used a combination of white and brown sugar). i was able to fill up 4 jars, each 500ml!! i made a lot of jam yesterday and it was such a waste since i cant submit at least one of it. so gave it away to my relatives who are also my neighbors. earlier, i also bought new jars the screw-cap type jars this time and i'll just make a new batch tomorrow. this time i'll be using pure white sugar to have a lighter color and i'll be adding a bit of Pectin (a natural chemical found in acidic fruits) to help the jam set. hopefully i get it right this time. i dont know when the submission of it will be but i want it done and over with so i'll have nothing to worry about later on.

oh! for this whole week, we have Chef Bubbles for lecture. i kinda pouted at the thought of it but then again, i dont think i'll be able to concentrate too well if Chef Pauline was the one doing the lectures for my class. honestly, i think she knows about my crush on her and just ignores it. its like whenever i steal glances at her, she'd be looking right back at me! or maybe its just because im guilty in-love...

anyways, Chef Bubbles is amusing when she does lecture! she's like a little girl...a smart little girl! and when i say little girl i dont mean the height...the way she acts is sort of childish but its amusing and it keeps the class awake somehow. Chef Bubbles is actually a pastry chef but since our topic is on fruits she's the one giving my class lectures as well. and it was funny when she told my class about Sour Dough. Sour Dough is literally sour because of the "live" yeast in it. its like you knead dough then just leave it be for awhile to let it collect "wild yeast", then when it has acquired these "wild yeast" you actually cultivate it and feed it. in short it has become a sort of pet. and it was funny when she told us about her sour dough which she calls "Minnerva", since it is like a pet. she feels sad that whenever she takes a part of Minnerva, she ends up creating waste and added that it wouldn't be such a problem if Minnerva wasn't a guy! hahahahaha!! yes, Minnerva is a girl sour dough!! its sooo funny that my class started making up names for sour dough pets! "Sour-Brandough" was the best one i heard!!! hahahahaha!! i wonder what other "fun facts" Chef Bubbles will be sharing tomorrow?

hot air balloon and green watermelons

ive been having this dream for two straight nights now...not that it bothers me...its just much more fun to share about these things among friends! something to laugh at i suppose...

anyways, going back to my weird dream...i was standing on a roof top over looking the city. it was during the evening and the wind was cool and crisp. when suddenly a huge hot air balloon passed by infront of me! riding in the basket was Chef Pauline extending out her arm!! i dont know what took over me but i jumped off the roof and reached for her arm. luckily she was able to grab hold of me and pulled me inside the basket with her. i realized it was a dream the moment i was already flying in a hot air balloon with Chef Pauline, but who cares, right? its my dream and i enjoyed it! ahahaha!! during our flight i recieved a call from my mom asking me to bring back watermelons. our hot balloon passed by this cliff that had small green watermelons growing. i asked Chef Pauline if those were fine to be picked but she just smiled back at me. i reached for the watermelons but i fell off the basket but before i landed to my death i woke up! hahahahaha!!

really interesting...and funny! i dont know what my sub conscious is telling me but for two nights now im having dreams about Chef Pauline...hahahahaha!! who's to complain about that?

im soo happy to be back in school!

i missed the people there soo much!! not to mention, a certain person as well!! ^___^ im so happy that i get to see my crush again! and its funny coz i always have these dialogues planned out in my mind but when im with her already, it gets jumbled up and i repeat myself! so uncool...anyways, it also sucks that i've forgotten almost everything about our lectures in school before....so i must study and remember everything again!! and i better do it quick since finals are coming around soon!! my tentative graduation is early october already! i cant believe it! im graduating soon and here i thought that this one year and 2 months course would take a while but it just flew by so quickly!

since im back in school...i have a project and a report to do. my project is about jams...i have to make a jam and vacuum-seal it in a jar. i'll be making apple-banana jam. thanks to the suggestion from my crush!! *squeeeeel* ^_^ and maybe i'll add cinnamon to it or vanilla which ever satisfies my taste buds! then i also need to do a report on cranberries and currants. we're on the topic of fruits, nuts and berries already. its interesting and fun to learn about these things.

anyways, since i was sooo busy before during my apprenticeship....remember i was advertising myself as a cook for hire? well im back for business since ive got free time and no money! ahahahahaha! just call or sms me to talk about details on what you'd like for me to prepare! hire me! i cook for money!! ahahahahaha! (hmm...sounds catchy!) ^__~

well...as i await for "clients"...i'll be going now and do my reports first then maybe i can start my jams tomorrow...till next time guys! take care! au revior! *mwah*

ive returned from reality

being in Mandarin gave me so much more good things than what i can actually complain about!! it was tough work all through out my 2-months apprenticeship but i dont regret a single thing. i learned so many new things, made some mistakes, caused some accidents and met new friends along the way! ^__~ my chosen field of career is a path that's not to be taken lightly. its not always the glitz, glamour and success that people always see in tv (lifestyle channel). because before all that, tremendous hard work and perseverance came first which not alot of people take into consideration. from the stories i heard and learned from my superiors in Mandarin, i respect them more than ever and thank them for the guidance they have given me! for the days of tears and pain that ive yet to experience, i look forward for that day when i will grow and become stronger than before! my 2-months apprenticeship is now done and over....time to go back to my school books and graduate soon!! but i will never forget my first tastes of reality in the working world!!!

last day at Mandarin Oriental, Manila (June 9, 2007: Friday)
Locker girlz!! Aubrey! Dianne! Roxanne! Kim!
Chef Neil!!! Chef de Partie: Chef Mario!!

Paseo Uno's Western Kitchen Group!

Sous-Chef: Chef Kiko!

the last item i made before i left...

Party at Giligan's Island (June 11, 2007: Monday)

and so...i learn from experience...

finally got internet connection through Globelines Broadband!! anyways...ive been soooo busy lately with my OJT...its almost 2 months since ive been working for free at Mandarin Oriental now. i am currently stationed at Paseo Uno...every morning im at the Western section then during lunch hours im at Martini's. that's just a quick update for what ive been up to...but what i really want to write right now is this....

Pare, busted ako!!!! Puñeta!!! Tapos wala pa kong ginagawa ah!!!

*sighs* just wanted to get that out of my chest...grabe!! the weird thing is...i dont regret any of it....im just feeling extremely annoyed right now...during my stay at Mandarin...I became friendly with this other trainee girl who's from St. Scho...i was pretty honest and straightforward to my intentions..(i just asked her out on a "friendly" date)..so i think i just blew it with that.. >___< Ganito pala yung feeling na busted!!! Langya!! *sighs* And so...another day ends...and a new one begins!!! i'll be meeting up with Miren and Keight on wednesday! Sleepover!! Yaaay!! I am so drinking!!!! >__________<

im still alive!!

heya people!! after such a long time...i still have no internet connection!! ahahahaha!! i cant believe this!! >___< im just now borrowing my cousin's computer to check my emails and at least update this aging blog of mine!! >__O

anyways, i'll just do a quick update..as ive said before my internship starts right after holy week, april 10 and ends june 8...2 months work without pay...and where you ask? well...i got in Mandarin!! ^___^ im soo happy i got in such a great and well-known hotel!! although pressure there is considerably high since Chef Norbert (our sorta-like school dean if you put it in regular school terms) WAS the executive-chef of Mandarin before. but that's where i'll really be put to the test! i hope i dont screw up!! >__<

aside from the whole internship thing, for the past 2 weeks of kitchen school we've been doing buffets!! the first week we did breakfast buffets!! it was really fun and funny at the same time since we were having breakfast food during lunch!! this week we're having all different kinds of appetizers as buffet food...yummy!! working in the buffet line is a lot fun and its obviously different from the usual ala-carte style we do. but i must admit its really tiring!!! on most mornings, i really have to force myself to get up from my bed when my body feels sooo stiff and tired...but its all good and worth it!! ^___^V

well just a quick update of my life....more to come soon....if i ever get my internet connection again!! T-T

till next time guys, take care!!! ^___~

internship

my internship officially starts on april 10 and ends on june 8 but prior to that i'll be very busy with all the paper work, resumes, job interviews and preparations.... >___< im really excited about it but at the same time really really nervous.....by monday i'll know where my placement is...meaning i'll know which hotel i could possible work for... O__o

well aside from that...i still have to do my salad presentation (im doing a panzanella salad, its an italian bread salad)...and i also have to finish my cheese powerpoint report. >__O yes, cheese!! ahehehehe....we also were suppose to have a cheese tasting session...but REAL cheeses are expensive...so never mind...oh well...

and another thing, im writing this in a net cafe...yes, my internet is busted again...i must say pldt dsl has very sloppy service!! im suppose to write down today the menu im offering for my "Cook for Hire" service!!!

im selling out my skills already so i can earn some money myself...so i can buy some new equipment...coz frankly, culinary items are not very light on the pocket...so i hope by this i can also lessen myself being a burden to my parents who are having a hard time as it is already...but with all this internship preparations...i guess i have to put this whole idea on hold for now...ugh... 2 months of work..aaah!! 2 months without chef Pauline!!! >______< must withstand!!! ahahahahahahhahaha!!!!

i'll just let you guys know what hotel i could be working at soon...till next time, ciao!! ^___~

i cant believe im actually writing this... O__o

earlier today, my classmates were kidding around that i'll be writing in my "diary" on how today is the best day ever! it sounded so corny and funny yet look at this!! im actually doing it!! ahahahahaha!! okay let me tell you how my day went today....

nothing out of the ordinary really...except that we've been having Chef Pauline as our lecturer for the past week already...and im loving it! why? well, for the simple reason that i have a crush on Chef Pauline!! ^___^ i didnt realize that i was crushing on her already till last week only...anyways, as much as possible i stay active in her lectures...and every break time i'd always try and make small talk with her...like asking about the best ingredients to use for whatever, the best place to buy...etc. and it was funny when i was at the comfort room fixing my hair..Chef Pauline went in to wash her hands...so i started to small talk with her again...i said that i was really impressed by how much she knows where to buy good ingredients and what those ingredients' packaging actually looks like! she replied that with so many companies asking her to make alternative market products (like those 5 peso cup cakes, ever wonder how they sell it so cheap?) its part of the job already, to research and know about these things. well she left with a smile and i was just smiling like a goof when my classmate went out of the cubicle! she knows about how i like Chef Pauline...so she was all like "ooooh!!! yiheee!!!" i literally felt my face turn red!! O__O but it was funny as well!! and then, after lunch...the pastry group brought out their show plate of strawberry dumplings to the entrance hall...everybody where taking pictures of it...and Chef Pauline was just standing beside the dumplings...so...i stole her picture!!! >_____< *flees*

my other classmate actually saw me took the picture...and he just laughed. >__O

anyways, aside from those kilig moments in school, i was approached by our split-personality faculty admin, Ms. Lotees...she asked if i could stay behind in school and help out with Chef Norbert's short course. i naturally said yes. i like helping out with the short courses..its good experience and additional reviews for my recipes! unfortunatley, i suddenly ate my words...i remembered i have a recipe quiz tomorrow!! whaaaa!! oh well....i'll just cram it later... O__o im just soooo tired after working....but its the good kind of tired-feeling....

and yes...even if its sooo corny...i'll say it again..today has been the best day of my week!!!

i love sleeping with my friends...

no, its not an orgy!! pervert!! LOL. ^__~ in the longest time i haven't seen Miren and Keight, we finally hanged out with each other yesterday. i picked up keight at her house...then as we drove on the highway we tried to decide where we'd go and meet Miren..the choices were: Rockwell, Eastwood, Greenbelt, Market-Market and Gateway. i exited at c-5 to buy us some time while we decide where we want to go, since c-5 exit always have this long line for the toll gate. by the time i paid my toll, we were able to decide where we wanted to go, Rockwell. but as i was driving...i realized, "how do we get to Rockwell from c-5?!" im not exactly a genius when it comes with directions. >__< so the usual 30-40 min drive took us an hour and a half before we got to Rockwell!! ahahahahaha!! yes, we got lost somehow...but we managed to get back on track!! ^___^ its fun!! and i noticed that whenever me and keight go on a "road trip" we always get ourselves lost!! ahahahahaha!! adventure?

when we got there the first thing we did was buy movie tickets for The Holiday...we bought the last film show which was 10:30pm. then we went to Mediterranean cafe and met up with Miren there. we had a wonderful Grecian dinner!! ^___^ afterwards we just went window shopping and i bought myself a strong cup of coffee before the movie. just to help me get by, plus im designated driver on the way back...so no sleeping on the job!! the movie was good, although it was extremely long!!! it finished like 12:30am already!! >__O well the drive back to Miren's house was fairly easy since traffic was light. i love sleep overs!!! it makes me feel so relaxed being with my friends and not to mention happy. there's always this secure feeling i get when i sleep among friends like them. i love them to death!! we tried to watch a movie before sleeping, Havana Nights: Dirty Dancing...but our bodies cant keep up...so we just turned off the tv and slept... ^___^ (Miren!!! thanks again for everything and for breakfast!! ahehehe..)



oh! even before that...last friday, i met up with Sharina and Rose!! the last time i saw them was graduation day!! omg!! that long already!??! O___O but it was great to see them again!! i missed them so much! even if it was just for a few hours...it was really fun!! since that was a friday and my car was color coded on fridays...i had to leave my car at home and commute...so after classes last friday, i commuted all the way from katipunan to makati!!! it was no big really...since it was easy to get around with the LRT2 and MRT near-by...oh!! i love LRT2!! its sooo kewl!! its like i was in hong kong!! ahehehehe....



i feel so relaxed and refresh now!! i'd say that this was the best weekend for me for the start of the new year so far!!!! im energized and ready to battle-out whatsoever comes my way!! ^___^

till next time, take care guys!! love ya!! *mwah*

hellish week

pressure built up inside and it was just too much that i couldnt handle...i said to myself i was going to stand up for myself...but what happened back there? i totally lost ground from where i stood...deep inside i always think that they'd stop at some point...get tired of it somehow....i can stand up for myself if i wanted to...but the repercussions scare me so much that i'd rather not try at all.....

what a hellish way to start my weekend...but it will get better hopefully.....i just need to learn....or rather i need to find my confidence somewhere....i perfectly know that i've done nothing wrong from the start....so what fault have i done? this is just too much high drama for one week...

i should really stop...

i really should....but i cant...but i must....i have to...if i want to...PASS!!!!

i must refrain from procrastinating so much and loitering around the net....but its so much fun!!! ahahahahahahaha!!!

tomorrow's my Meat exam retake...yes, you read that right...RETAKE...ive taken the huge plunge since i started school...even the Chefs who knew me well were pretty surprised i was part of the group who'd be taking the retake...ugh...i have a good excuse for it though!! i really do!! i just studied too much for it!! ^___~ no kid!! through out the holidays i was studying like mad for my midterms....but when it finally came down to it...i grazed over my exams...luckily i passed all of it except for this one, the Meats....bleh....so i'll do better this time...but even if i get a line of 90 for this retake...since it is a retake...they'll only give me a 75...oh well...its better than a 73 (my original score)...ugh....

so for now...enjoy this clip entitled "im not a lesbian"...its so funny you have to watch it!! even if you're not queer like me!! ^___~



PS. I just finished watching the movie "Saving Face"...its such a good lezzy movie!!!! one of the best comedy-lez films ive seen so far...but i also cant recommend "Loving Annabelle" enough!! that one just takes the cake of all lez movies!!! lol. ^___^

Rome and Juliet

(taken from AngLadlad.com yahoo-group message board )

ROME & JULIET

A Very Sexy, Provocative and Daring Indie Movie on Valentine's Day

With its aim to introduce groundbreaking movies, Cinema One Originals
proudly presents the screening of the critically acclaimed digital
film Rome & Juliet starting February 14 at the Indie Sine Theater of
Robinsons Galleria Movieworld at Ortigas Center.

Starring Mylene Dizon and Andrea del Rosario, and directed by Connie
S.A. Macatuno, the story follows the romantic journey and soul mating
of two straight women who plunge in forbidden love. The film
confronts issues concerning taboo affairs and sexual norms.

When a conservative pre-school teacher (Andrea del Rosario) hires a
liberated wedding planner (Mylene Dizon) for her nuptials, they
become close and develop a romance that becomes a huge scandal after
the groom and their families discover their affair. Together, they
face the trials of their unconventional relationship.

The plot which revolves around facing one's self and detouring from
the norms in the name of love, is in itself very stimulating, added
by the mixture of sexiness and realism in the movie. It masterfully
blends everyday dialogues with passionate and sexually-charged love
scenes (several frontal exposures from Dizon and del Rosario are to
be expected, even Rafael Rosell was daring) between couples and
unlikely pairing that will shock and fuel the viewers inner desires.

Viewers, jurors and critics perceived Rome & Juliet as the most
commercially viable digital film among the seven final entries in the
Cinema One Originals Digital Film Festival last 2006.

The film also got positive reviews from columnists and critics for
its bravery and setting itself to be a medium exploring the hidden
and unpredictable emotions that define our nature as humans. Mario
Bautista noted in his Freehand column in People's Journal that
the "love scenes between Mylene and Andrea have much commercial
appeal and they're wonderfully integrated in the story."

Rome & Juliet was also selected to have an exhibition at the New York
International Independent Film and Video Festival. The selection
panel has given them excellent reviews for the movie's very good
image quality, solid story and believable performances.

Rome and Juliet also stars Miko Palanca, Lui Villaruz, Joshua
Deocareza, Glydel Mercado, CJ Mercado and featuring Ms. Tessie Tomas.

Experience this daring and thought-provoking film when it opens on
Valentine's Day February 14 in theater exclusively at Robinsons
Galleria Movieworld. Rome & Juliet is produced by Creative Programs
Inc. (CPI) thru the Cinema One Originals digital movie project.


I want to watch this movie!!! but i have kitchen week... T-T huhuhu....i hope i can find time or...a good excuse so i can sneak out and watch this!!!! it sounds really good!!!

i need an automobile education!!!

awww man!!! what a week!!! ive been so busy with school... staying in school till late night helping out the Chefs with the short course....really tiring!! but enjoyable!! ^__^ and then today....omg! my classmates, David and Blueberry, hitched a ride with me on the way home...

i was driving through C-5 when suddenly we heard a "plop-plop-plop" sound....apparently my right rear tire blew up!!! it was so weird coz i didnt panic to start....i was thinking of calling daddy!!! ahehehe....but im lucky that David is a car expert!!! he changed the tire while i "redirected" the traffic we caused!!! ahahahahahahaha!!! David was really cool with the whole tire changing thing...he got it done within 10 minutes flat!!!! *sighs* im just sooo lucky!! and eternally grateful to David!! (most likely he'll be having my dessert in school for a week) ^___^

i really wouldnt know what to do if i'd be alone aside from calling daddy!! ^___~

oh well...im so glad its the weekend already!!!! time to finish some over due drawings....relax and prepare myself for the next week!!! till next time!!!

i want that shirt!!!!!

"All the good ones are GAY!!!!"

i saw that print on a shirt in AM-BLVD. i literally laughed out loud!!! i wanted to buy it immediatly..but then when i was looking around...i figured the only sizes they would have is small, extra small, tiny and anorexic!!!! geeez...well if i cant fit in that shirt...i'll make my own!!! i used to do that...shirt prints...we used to have this special paper where we print our design and just iron it on the shirt and the design transfers to the shirt!! it was really cool!!! i just have to find that special paper...if i cant...i can always go textiles paint.. =D

thank you!!!

thanks to all the people who greeted me on my birthday (last Jan. 14)!!! because of my midterms i didnt had any celebration party whatsoever...but it touches my heart so much that people whom i didnt expect to remember greeted me with so such enthusiaism!! ^___^V thank you everybody for making my day!!!

belated happy birthday to my sister, Mica (Jan. 13); to Mayette (Jan. 15) and Happy birthday to Kagz who's bday is today!!! ^___~

*sunod-sunod yung mga bday namin!! ahehehehe....

well tomorrow is the last day of my exams!! i cant wait for this to be over!!!!

im back (for now..)

eyo peeps!!! ive got connection already!! although right now im in the middle of my midterms...it extends through out till next week....so in short im just procrastinating now to updated my ageing blog!! lol. ^^;

oh...im still using the pldt dsl...i was told that the wireless broadband internet of either Smart or Globe was incredibly slow...so we just reconnected back to pldt dsl except with the plan 995 this time...whew! easy on the wallets this time!! a bit slower than usual but still tolerable...

ive obviously got tons of pictures...but no time right now to upload 'em....since i'll be leaving any minute to go to Farmer's Market...i'll be shopping for the ingredients i need for my hands-on midterms exam...hooeeee......im nervous!!!! its tomorrow already!! i cant believe it!! so fast...

anyways...a short recap of what has happened over the past 3 weeks of my internet-less life...(i missed out on so much...in terms of downloading and watching anime)

1. had the first annual barkada christmas party! (t'was a blast!!!)
2. had a life-changing revelation =D
3. cooked alot for my family and during the holiday events as well...(got really tired..bleh..)
4. studied during the holidays!! (such a dork)
5. tried drawing again...but wasnt able to fully appreciate the outcome...i wonder when will i get my "groove" back...i miss it... =(
6. watched Loving Annabelle 6 times already (i love it...such a great captivating story plot and great actresses as well!!!)

well...that was what happened to me....right now...whenever i find my free time...i watch the first season of The L Word...coz currently season 4 is already showing at the U.S....so in preparation for that....im just watching it again...besides i loved the first season the 2nd and third just went downhill after that...my favorite was when Dana hooked up with sous-chef Lara Perkins in season 1..they were so cute together...too bad the producers thought of killing Dana with breast cancer in season 3....stupid asses!!! oh well...that's hollywood for you...

oh! in another note...i already wrote my "coming-out" letter for my parents last December..(so Christmassy spirit, isnt it?)...but i have yet to give it to them...i dont know when...i have no idea if i can even find my courage to give it...i just got it done...wrote all my pure-rare-honest thoughts in the letter....so...in the time being....i'll enjoy the present...forget the past and worry the future later!! lol. ^___^V

till next time guys!! keep it real!!! *mwah*