frustrated

they make it hard for me to say what i want...they ask what i want but its not like it can be easily acquired by a wave of a magic wand! i know its expensive that's why i've changed my mind already. then they make up this whole jealousy sibling thing!! my god....who would be jealous over my older sister?! im just thinking about them in the first place!! the repercussion of the actions that are being made now will happen when i leave already...so its not like its an easy thing..i tell them i'll just get it in the future with my own money...then they fret up!! what the hell is wrong with them?! im already trying to alleviate the stress by not adding more to the costs of everything......its all about the money!!! everything!!! i know these are tough times already that's why!! that's why!! i dont want that stupid lap top anymore!! seeing you guys kill yourselves over the money for it is just heart breaking!!! so enough....just stop it....please.......i want to leave already.....now....i love them to death...but its too much already...i want my own space...