hellish week

pressure built up inside and it was just too much that i couldnt handle...i said to myself i was going to stand up for myself...but what happened back there? i totally lost ground from where i stood...deep inside i always think that they'd stop at some point...get tired of it somehow....i can stand up for myself if i wanted to...but the repercussions scare me so much that i'd rather not try at all.....

what a hellish way to start my weekend...but it will get better hopefully.....i just need to learn....or rather i need to find my confidence somewhere....i perfectly know that i've done nothing wrong from the start....so what fault have i done? this is just too much high drama for one week...