eternally unrequited

i was thinking for quite some time now...when was i ever really "in-love"? and i remembered nostalgic memories of my childhood days...innocent and sweet, yet naive to reality...

i was in grade 5 and i was still riding in a school bus before. and sometime during the middle of the school year...there was a new student...a year younger than me...she was cute with a lovely smile...and we quickly became close friends. although we were in different grade levels, somehow it didnt matter..before school, we'd sit beside each other making a ruckus so early in the morning [which caused the other people in the bus to wake up and get mad. lol.] and after school, on the way home, we'd tell stories of how our day went...and usually, she would sing to me...she has the most beautiful singing voice i have ever heard. or sometimes, when all energy was gone...we'd just sleep side-by-side...it felt so real back then...when other things didnt matter..

but soon, we grew up...and realized the differences..still...we made an effort of holding the "friendship" together...when she was already in grade 5 and i was in grade 6. she wasn't a bus rider anymore...so every morning, i would go to her class and wait for her arrival. her classmates soon took notice of me...and started making side-comments...but she didnt mind them at all. whenever she would see me outside, she would always run out and we'd go to the cafetorium and just talk about anything. it was really nice...those early mornings...somtimes we wouldn't say anything at all...just the comfort of being together for a moment was enough. well...she never finished her school year, since she had to move away again.

to be able to sit with someone and not say anything at all and yet feel so comfortable...i wonder if i'll ever find that feeling again....my first love....


~~~~on a side note~~~~
i've actually got not only a first love....but a failed love as well...many people know that already...then what else...uhhh...crushes..yes...plural form!! for the eternally unattainable..lol... ^__^ love in progress...*smirks*yea right...that's empty right now!! ahahahaha!!

from a very famous text quote.. "people say love makes the world go 'round...so does 10 shots of tequila...what's their point?"