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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! wow!! its a new year again!!! O__O never thought time would pass me by sooo fast!!! and it only feels like yesterday when the first day of school started and i became honest to my friends about the real me... soo many things happened after that..most of which are good....its like i was reborn this year...and i suppose i'll be growing up in the coming years...

whatever happened back then is obviously the past now and i cant dwell on it anymore...what is important is right now and the future....i'll be honest...i'm scared of my future...even though im soo happy right now and it feels like everythings going great...i cant help but think that my time will come soon enough...the time when i finally have to be honest with my own family... i always have this thought that after i come out...that everything will still be okay...but then again when i think about it...everything will be okay but soo many things will be different from then on...*sighs* fear...why cant i overcome you? well its a new year...i have to find my courage for this soon.... somehow i'll be able to pass this road block...(positive thinking...) *weak smile* right...??

well i have alot of things to be thankful this year!! Great parents, Great friends and wonderful lasting memories!!! no matter what...as long as im still alive...i'll live everyday without regrets!!!! because regret would be the only thing that would chain me to the past.

anyways...(done with the random thoughts) we had our new year's party at my aunt's house this time...its like dec. 24 at my uncle's; 31st at my aunt's and jan. 1 at my house...but since im having my debut at the beach...my dad said today's party is just moved on the day of my debut... ^__~ so my family and i will just have our new year's dinner out somewhere later....and then tomorrow...i'll be opening a bank account already...its about time!! i need my savings account too, you know!? and then on tuesday...my dad and i will be going all the way to the resort where my debut will be held...my dad wants to see the place first before anything else...im the only one and my other cousins who actually saw the area...we went there like 2 summers ago...great place!! then finally starting wednesday...school resumes again!! bleh... X___x but its okay...i miss my friends!! and i havent spoke with miren and keight for ages already!!! O__o well it felt that long!! oh well...by the way, the DLSU list issue isnt still settled...i still dont believe that bull!!!! >___O *checks time* whoaa!!! its 2:20am already!! time flies really fast!! okay,okay...time for bed now...till next time guys!!! ciao ^___~